sheeesh

I laugh at stupid things, just 'cus they tickle me.

I bet Mariella has more things to say then I do....
Dana told me something a couple nights ago that has been stuck in my head... until this morning I know how I'm going to use those words. I love everyone I know, but I feel like I just can't let go of them, so I write people ever so often to see how they are doing, but really.... we're out of each others lives. I have to learn how to be happy with the memory of them, and just let go. I feel like I think about everyone I know every single day... I need to stop this maddddness. I guess it really clicked when I realized that Carly is in my past. I love her so much and I will always have a huge place for her in my heart. I call and call, and try to reach her, but she doesn't do the same back. I have to let go. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with.
I need a fag.