It just is.

So much lately have I wanted something stable. Something or someone I can depend on to always be there. Then I realize that I need to stop this childish fantasy because that is never going to happen. You can have friends, family, and lovers but at the end of the day, you are the only one looking out for yourself. I hate that in this day and age people just have cellphones or Facebook so they don't think it matters to have to see someone face to face. Well those are not enough, nor are they human. So I have deleted my Facebook and I will no longer have my cell phone next to me. I am done with going out of my way to work at relationships so hard and not have the same in return. What's the point when all you do is love and give so much energy to something or someone and it isn't returned? When you don't feel very important? I say fuck it. You want me, come to me. I will no longer voice what I want or how I feel to anyone but myself and God. She is the only one who listens anyway.

=w=

I'm still trying to recover from the most amazing time last night. 3 things: Open Bar, Free Food, Free WEEZER!
I started my day off thinking I was just going to catch Weezer, sing along then go home. Oh boy was I in for a rude awakening. The security guard that was in charge of the area next to us (while we were in line) looked and acted almost exactly like Terry Crews! I was in love, he was completely hilarious. We waited for about 5 hours (although we had tickets it was a first come first show event so we had to make sure we'd get in). The VIP line was getting longer and longer every minute we thought we weren't going to get in and I was super bummed out. Theeeeen some man put his hand to my left and said "Everyone from here and forward is getting in" Woohoo!! So we get in and they want to see my ID for the OPEN BAR. Say What!? Ash and I hung out with Jac n Coke for a minute. I realized I don't even like hard liquor very much so I stuck to wine. Once Weezer came on it was non-stop dancing for what seemed like hours. I have never danced my booty off like that, EVER. It was incredible. They payed "Perfect Situation" and "Memories", the rest of the set was from The Blue and Green album, PERFECT! The smell of herb, cameras flashing, french fries, Hot dogs, and Pizza were all over the place. The night was magical. I couldn't have asked for anything better, ever. It was completely perfect.

You say it's your birthday

Leo turned 10 yesterday and mi familia went all out on everything. By the end of the night Mariisa had huge pink bunny ears, I had an Indian Head dress on and everyone was completely wasted. Success?
I just placed my order for this beauty:

I can't wait until it's in my hands!
I also found mi papa's video camera so I'm very excited to start some stop motion projects! I don't have much patience so this will be an excellent way to exercise that part of me.
Tuesday I have a date with =w=!
Thursday I'm having lunch with an old friend that I haven't seen or talked to in a little over a year.
And Mi Cranberry Orange Muffin Cookie is coming out on Friday and staying until Monday :) This week looks like it's going to be a fantastic one!

Kewpie!

If you belonged to me, all I would do is love you all day long.

Pregnant

Every time I look at this page I keep hoping it will look different. I used to be really in the know-how of this HTML stuff and now I don't know what the heck any of it means. I guess I need to pick it up, pick it up, pick it up!

I played 2 shows last week and 1 last night with Los Larks and they all felt so good. My first good experiences with a band. Not that I have many.. but I always had an idea of how it should feel like to be in one and play music you love with people you really dig. I do not regret my first experience though, you live and learn. I have learned that I do not need to take bullshit from people that constantly disrespect the people around you... the people that do so much for you and ask for nothing in return. What goes around comes around and you'll get what you deserve.

Life is great. I am back in the dessert and enjoying the shit out of it. There is more to California than Los Angeles, I am glad I got out. As awesome as it can be sometimes, I prefer to not breathe that air. I miss my Cranberry Orange Muffin Cookie but life works out. Vegas is the near future and it's also only 2 hours from here so we're straight golden. I left at the perfect time. I have a bunch of great friends back there but I feel like my connection to them is not as strong as it once was, life is leading me another direction. I am an hour away from the new friendships in my life and only one road away from my twin. Life is great.

The weather has been in the triple digits and my pores haven't had a break. I can't wait until the cold! The dessert gets crazy cold during the winter. I just looove cuddling up with a bunch of blankets at night. Nothing beats that.

This girl was feeling a little blue a couple days ago

And also, I do not like the new Google image search layout.

Children are our future?

Well if so, then I fear for our future.

Much more often do I hear parents screaming at their kids in the store. Do they not realize that the reason their kid is acting the way they do is because of how they raised them? I heard a child ask their mother for some candy and she yelled at him. HE IS FUCKING 7 YEARS OLD, OF COURSE HE WANTS CANDY! Are you kidding me? Today's parents are not only humiliating their their kid, they're also making this child feel unloved. No wonder kids grow up and bomb schools or commit suicide.

Children are almost an exact copy of who you are. If you don't like how your child is acting then you better fix YOURSELF. How are kids to know what's right from wrong? These kids will grow up knowing only hated as love and spreading that to their kids. It's a horrible cycle that needs to end. If you do not want to give your child the time of day to hug him/her, help them with their homework, read with them, or laugh with them then give them to a family who DREAMS of doing that. A couple who can't have children of their own that will love this child unconditionally.

It is time that people SEE their kid and stop talking about them IN FRONT of them. They hear you. They know what you're talking about. STOP pretending they are not there. Talk to your kids with respect and raise them to be loving respectful people. Children are people too. We need to change the way they are treated. We need to give to their schools, hire more teachers, bring back music programs and other extra curricular activities. Embrace their talent and uniqueness. Show nothing but love to these kids because they deserve it.

Children ARE our future.

El Taco Oso

I leave this place in my spaceship on Monday. Oh Monday Monday, can't trust that day.
I will hopefully get a new set of eyes that follwing Tuesday.


Life is wonderful and since I will have a long time of just Jazzness in this near future, until next summer, I will most definitely be uploading this guy way more. No more of this 1 post a month crap. This guy can also use a face lift, so we here at Jazzi Blog will be have a lot of stuff to work on and lots of visual goodies for you :)

Until then, toodles.

Sometimes

Certain subjects just touch your soul :)

Twang!

I suppose it's time for a new post. I usually completely stop something when it starts becoming routine. I can't stand the same thing not changing for too long. I'm working on it, but maybe it's just how I was built.
I have been skin full of lazy bones all morning long. I'm thinking about a trip to the Goodwill in a bit just to do SOMETHING... I can hear The Fresh Prince coming in from the living room and I just remembered why I turned this computer on in the first place, so thats cool.


This month will be a good one. This summer hasn't been a very hott one... not as hott as last year anyway. It's a party though, and I can't wait until the coldness begins.
I'm itching for a trip to Little Tokyo but I can't think of one person to ask. Doing things alone is rad but sometimes a girl wants to share moments you know? I need to find one of those "make friends" places.

Diablito

Today is June 29th and I haven't set my eyes on this page in a cool minute.
Dave Clark Five is coming in through my right ear and Anders playing along on his key board is coming in through my left.
I don't really have much of a desire to keep updating this but as it turns out people actually read it... and missed it! So this is for you.

Please tell my why this boy just put in a Strokes song (that he heard only once before) and is playing along with the guitar using his fingers on white and black keys AND it sounds perfect. Freakin geniuses man, I never really could understand them.

I am currently hungry and my arms are still tingling from the hot tub. Balls.

Rambler show on the 8th of July.
$10- 21+

Chela

Here are a few pictures I took from Chela




I cannot show anymore :) Like I've mentioned before, DEFINITELY worth going to see. I will post more info of up coming shows when I have it.

Hummus

I'm taking a break from trying to learn "Island in the Sun" on this damn guitar. My fingers hurt. Brass and wind instruments are waay easier than anything with strings.
There is a delicious vegan pizza on my kitchen table and I can't stop thinking about it.
Two gigs this weekend and I'm not even nervous. Which I find strange.
You know what else is strange? 420 is right around the corner and I don't think I'm going to celebrate. Life is all over the place and my brain is scattered.

Here are some pictures I took at Soapbox last night:

Diarrhea Pocket

One of my favorite things to do is to put a movie in and clean. Something with a great soundtrack, oooh, you're golden. Girl, Interrupted is the one playing in the back round right now. An Education, Pirate Radio, Ladies and Gentleman the Fabulous Stains, The Music Man, and Control are a few great ones.

I heard Jim Gaffigan say something about a salad with french fries in it... I'm not going to lie, that sounds right up my ally. When I was in high school I used to eat Hot Fries with Chocolate pudding and it was deeelicious!
I have been dreaming of the garden burgers from Emle's for a couple days now. I think I'll do something about that later today, yumm.

Saltines for dinner

Gemini:
You might feel clueless and the more you try to figure out what's happening, the less you seem to know today. Unfortunately, logical investigation isn't going to help now, for reality is being fed by emotional rather than logical currents, and you won't be able to think your way through these circumstances. You'll gain a sense of freedom, or even temporary exhilaration, when you just give in to the flow.

Fucking weird. I don't know how much I believe in horoscopes anymore, but this sounds like good advice right now. I need to get out of my head.

Chem Trails

The day is incredibly lovely outside but the air quality is horrid. I'm so sad I want to go on a fantastic walk, but I do not feel like coughing the next couple of days. I hate those people in the planes releasing shit into our lungs.
Last year my New Years resolution was to dress fancy everyday and loose weight. I ended up only loosing weight... I think I dressed fancy once. Jaja. Well I decided last night that starting today I will feel fancy for the rest of life. Let me tell you... I'm feeling prreeeetty fancy right now. (last year) I think I didn't do it because I didn't like the idea of having to take forever to get ready to go somewhere. I mean, it literally takes me 10 to 20 minutes to get ready. But I have to say, it's a lot easier when you hold hands with someone that always looks incredible. I enjoy getting ready, and even then, it still only takes me around 20 to 30 minutes, woohoo! Win win.

I'm off to toot my horn.

An Education

Moody Scott Baaaaioooo

Last night I got paid to paint little kids faces for 5 hours. I need to be doing that full time man. And the best part is little kids don't know how awesome they are, it's completely genuine. Ashley came by and I painted her face then I decided to do mine. Then we busted a mission to Burbank at 2 in the morning for some Sweet Potato Fries, yumm.
Got less hours of sleep then I realized I would get. Woke up, was on total autopilot, got ready, and headed out for rehearsal. I watched the complete film today, it's pretty sweet. We have an official gig date and I'm nervous as cuss!

Tomororw is Dans birthday and a little bird told me that means beer and pizza. Sounds good to me! Maybe something green in the morning to kick start the day ;)

Cum definitely doesn't taste like vegan pizza

I decided to shave the side of my head, then did it. I rarely (instantly) act on a new idea my brain creates, but for some reason I just knew I should.?. I love it and I believe I will keep loving it tomorrow and the next day.


Yesterday was Monday which means Ru Paul's Drag Race! Like I've said before, EVERYONE loves drag queens.



In an hour I'm going to have tea with Erin and her beautiful soul then hopefully have a new mouth piece for mi trompet in my possesion :) THEN hopefully I will finally get my phone fixed. I haven't really put that on my list of priorities, but it's annoying some people so I GUESS I'll finally get that done.

I need to poop.

Say it aint soo

Yesterday I jumped on the Metro straight to Noho to hang out with Crago. She taught me how to make vegan chocolates and lollipops. I am addicted. They taste amazingly delicious.


I have the best mornings ever, you can't possibly imagine. I am the luckiest human alive.
Today, Ash and I are going to Bellflower for a Craigslist adventure. We'll see how that goes.

You take your car to work, I'll take my board.

Happy Happy Joy Joy

But I don't have a mountain, all I have is this blog.

Oh, it is love

Danger

Today was....

Scooters

It's 6:24am and I'm wiiide awake. A lot of David Bowie has been stuck in my head since I woke up around 4:20... ;) I have a meeting at work in a couple hours then I get to see my hunny muffin for breakfast.

Yesterday Roger and I had a wonderful trip around Csun. If you go to that school or are ever on campus make sure to take time to acknowledge all the different types of trees there are. JEEPERS they are BEAAUTIFUL. I can't wait to get my film developed. I wonder if everything will print the way we saw it...


Wear the eye-patch Mal, wear the eye-patch.

?Fark!

Jeepers! No one is safe
http://www.ajc.com/news/nation-world/organic-snack-bars-recalled-321918.html?imw=Y


My voice is starting to sound totally sweeeet.... I WILL NOT BE UNDER THE WEATHER!

Fryday

Yesterday... what did I do yesterday? Well Shlee, Rog, and I went to Veggie Delight for some delicious tea and Won Tons, yuuuuum. Then I went to Pams to play dress up and paint our faces, it was so much fun. Her photographer friend came over and took pictures of us, jeepers I'm so awkward. When Josh got home I finally filled my character sheet out and let me tell you, I'm the coolest most buff Druid you will ever meet in your life. I can't wait to play on Tuesday.


This morning I woke up and got ready to walk my Cranberry Orange Muffin Cookie to school. We walked through the Orange Grove and sat at the Turtle pond for a while. I had never seen a Coy Fish before this point of my life. They are beautiful. I just ate a delicious Hummus sandwich and I'm about to play some tunes before I leave for Elliotts' to record them.
Unanswered questions were answered yesterday and it really put me in a weird mood. But life is so fantastic I just can't give two shits about it anymore.... How do you work with someone you want to smash their face in a brick wall though? I guess we'll see.

Is there already a band named The Drifters?

This morning I woke up to Dan belting Fleet Foxes in the shower. It was pretty great. I'm currently trying to decide on what to eat for breakfast... Oooh, and I finally have some closet space for clothes mmm, delicious. Having to wear wrinkly clothes was kind of getting old. Plus, no more clothes all over the ground... or bed or couch or boxes. Sounds like I made it huge ladies and gentleman.


Around 300,000 adult deaths in the United States each year are attributable to unhealthy dietary habits and physical inactivity or sedentary behavior.
Approximately 19% of children (ages 6–11) and 17% of adolescents (ages 12–19) were overweight in 2000. Imagine how the numbers have changed in 10 years.
This needs to stop! If you don't have your health in this world you don't have anything at all. People need to realize that no one has their back but themselves, that's why there are places like McDonalds and Jack in the Box. They're only there to take your money and you're straight trippin if you think they have your best interest in mind. Plus, no one deserves to hate themselves when they look in the mirror. It's not about being skinny, it's about being healthy. You're a beautiful human soul, respect your temple.

I personally think all 3 of these women look Fantastic. This is healthy.
This is not:


Diets don't work. You have to change your lifestyle.

On a lighter note, I decided I'm never putting out. I will not conform. 21 years and counting.
If the end game is just to get off... then whats the point?

all of those in just one line.

You're so nice and you're so smart
You're such a good friend I hafta break you heart
Tell you that I love you then I'll tear your world apart
Just pretend I didn't tear your world apart.

Yesterdays band practice went really well. The music sounds so pretty I can't wait until we perform it live. After Elliott dropped me off, Erin picked me up and we had a romantic evening full of delicious food, Coke n Rum, Reno 911 out takes, and Good Hair. perfect Valentines Day.

Albert Hammond Jr is singing to me from Rogers room. This morning I got home and went straight for the bed. As soon as I thought to see what Shlee was up to, she text me. So we went for some scrumptious breakfast at Emlie's. We stopped by the music hall for a bit before she brought me back home. I decided that laying down once I got home would not be a good idea, so I decided to clean. Is it just me or does life feel fucking fantastic once you've cleaned...

Fast forward 2 hours, now we're here. Anders to mi left, Shlee to mi right. Roger to the right and back a little playing his guitar. I put some potatoes in the oven to feed these starving kids. Potatoes are the perfect for any occasion. Like life. Adios.

Los Pedros

I am currently waiting on some Potatoes in the oven and for Roger to come home. There is a tea cup with red wine sitting next to me and Jefferson Airplane is in my ears. My lips feel deflated.
Today, just like every other day recently, it took me a while to get up. Damn you memory foam. When I finally did decide to get out of bed an hour later, I got ready for the day. Erin came over and we made some sandwiches to take on our hike. It was suuuuch a beautiful day outside. After our hike she dropped me off at Elliotts' and we rehearsed for a few hours then I came home. Now we're all caught up on my life.


Tomorrow is Valentines Day. Heading to the studio around 11 and I don't even know when we'll be done... does anyone? After Rehearsal though, Erin Anders and I are going to get some delicious dinner at Follow Your Heart.


Is it weird to have your own songs stuck in your head?

golden

This just in!
2 for 1's Pizza on Chatsworth and Balboa in Granada Hills is WHERE IT'S AT! I have been vegan for about 8 months now (give or take) and for the past month and a half I have been craving pizza so bad. Put 2 and 2 together....
BEST. VEGAN. PIZZA. EVER! A large was only $7! I definitely recommend it even if you enjoy real cheese.
YUUUUMMMYYYY

Just keep swimming

Life.... where do I begin? I haven't updated this guy in a whiiile. My apologies to those of you that actually read what's on my mind.

This is what today looks like


Yesterday I woke up and played my trumpet for a couple hours. Then I went on a delicious walk around town with my ipod on shuffle. Later in the evening Shlee and Pam came over to hang out before Soapbox. Anders met up with us and we flew to Encino. We had a great show, SOO many hilarious comedians! Those that left early definitely missed out on a lot of laughter. After the Soap, The Bird, Shlee, Anders, Tom Wolfe, and I went to Mel's for some food (they seriously only gave me like 10 fries with my garden burger, WTF?!). Good night.

This morning I did not want to wake up at all. Shlee's alarm kept going off but that shit didn't phaaaaase me ;) Anders came over around 10, we practiced some tunes then he left around noon. Now, I'm sitting here and trying to convince myself to get up! It's 1:23. I should get up and dressed...

Here, these are for you: